It’s Just Another Misanthropic Tuesday, woah-oa-ohhhhhhhhh
Today I’m being slightly hateful. It happens. Especially when idiocy has taken up residence on certain floors and nursing stations. I really need more than one day off after I do my six day stretch. I’ve been in kind of a funk since yesterday. Not quite ready to talk about why. Some people know but something serious has happened (with my health) and I’m on the verge of a freak out but trying to keep myself positive. That’s a stretch for me in its-self, but I’ve been trying to turn over a new leaf this year and so far I’ve been doing well.
I’ve been taking care of myself (and my health) for a change and not putting everyone before me. I kicked Mike’s ass to the curb (yay!); broke off some friendships that were more poisonous then supportive; joined a gym (damn doctor won’t let me go yet though); putting my family and worthwhile friendships as a higher priority and trying to mend fences in some past friendships. I’ve been working my ass off and thought it was finally starting to pay off…
Normally, something like this would knock me on my ass and have me huddled in the corner. I’m trying to proactively kick back before I get mine kicked. Like I said, it could be a false alarm, but with my history my doctors aren’t taking any chances. I have to get blood work done asap but I don’t trust everyone I work with and don’t really want speculations on why I’m getting the tests done. I’m just stuck spinning my wheels until all the test results come back and trying to stay sane…
girlofwords said,
April 15, 2009 at 10:28 pm
I’m proud of you! And I’m so honored to be able to call you a friend!